While I was waiting for our referral--which turned out to be 31-1/2 mos from LID and just over 3 yrs from application-- I heard from people that "once we received a referral, the pain of the wait would just fade away." I never believed it, not for one second. In fact, it used to really piss me off as it seemed so dismissive.
Well, I definitely am not going to say that I have forgotten the pain of the wait. It was a long and difficult time of my life. As the months dragged on, I had many days that held more tears than smiles. I can say that even though the memory of the pain is still with me, it has dissipated somewhat. The hole in my life and heart that used to be filled with pain and longing is being replaced. Its filling with visions of G's little smile or the funny way she motions to me with her fingers squished together to let me know she'd like me to sing "Itsy Bitsy Spider" to her one more time. The sadness is being slowly replaced with the memories we make daily. Like tonight when G was a little whiney and Casey sat on the floor and played toys with her and her face lit up!
Someday, the pain of the wait may be gone entirely. However, even if the pain never completely disappears I can say with all honesty, Georgiana was worth it! I truly believe it would be impossible for me to be any more in love with this lovely little girl. Looking at her face just melts my heart. Bobby and I have a discussion almost every day about how lucky we are that she entered our lives. We cannot believe our good fortune. Its official, she's perfect for us!
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Oh, to have vegetation growing that Frances could go out an explore... I am so envious.
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